*This takes some getting used to*

First day back to work after a glorious summer & first full day attempting to follow my schedule. I consider this a fluid document so perhaps some modifications &/or additions will have to be made.

Overall I am very pleased with myself for following through on this idea. The schedule did not keep me from regressing into a few bad habits. The worst one is -- feeling sorry for myself. Case in point. I was hustling to get to everything on my list of things to do this evening which included laundry, dishes & cleaning. One of those darned DS games was lost in our couch this past weekend so I embarked on vacuuming & washing covers. This makes Cal automatically want to jump on the couches - making the dirt fly & pushing the supposedly clean pieces into the dirt. (We have a lot of dirt in our house - it's an uncanny phenomenon. Lots of dirt!)

I could have just cried. I don't know why I get so emotional when I am cleaning. I think it is just general frustration. And then I feel sorry for myself that I'm working alone & nobody is helping me. Which is crazy because I'm the one who places the expectations. Silly.

I checked off the majority of things on my schedule. Maybe not in the timeframes, but they're checked off. Cal is late to bed tonight, but we're washed & pj'ed again. 2 nights in a row! Oh the temptation to put off my shower until tomorrow. I had a hard enough time getting out of here on time this morning. Night showers it must be.

We even had a little chill time when Cal got home. He was thrilled to find my Bufo! (This is my underfoot toad friend) He's an outside kiddo. We have the best adventures & I missed him today sooo much.



I'm so exhausted right now. I still want to do some reading - 10:30 rest time calls though. This is rough. I think, even though the committment to cleaning time in the p.m. can make me cry - I'm feeling the most anxiety over the sleep/resting time. I felt rushed this morning. I need to find a way that I can enjoy my mornings, even with 45 less minutes. Mornings are my favorite. I like to see the sun come up...preferably while enjoying a hot cup of coffee & relaxing. I'm asking a lot, huh?

Going back to work each school year takes some getting used to. I just want to feel more present this year & not get lost in exhaustion & work. Thank goodness I have wonderful friends at work with me. Thanks to a few special peeps, I heard many words of encouragement about both my efforts for maintaining a schedule & for blogging. Change can be tough, but it also can be productive & positive. So far, so good.