Had to revisit

I had to revisit tonight's blog attempt. I will definitely leave the one up from earlier. It's so weird, but I was committing to my attempt to define a schedule in our house & found myself snuggled in with Cal & just my iPad. So...I downloaded the Blogger app & started to blog. Only to find out that I can't type my thoughts using the iPad. How weird is THAT?! I'm sure there are articles & grad students researching the brain to iPad typing deficiencies right now. But I'm back on qwerty just as I like it - so let's try this again.

Today in the the mania of the LAST DAY OF SUMMER VACATION, I typed up a prototype schedule for my mornings & Cal & my evenings on school days. Here's a peek of what I have so far. I did pretty well tonight. Cal was even sleeping at or around 9:30. I know this is probably an attrociously late bedtime consideration for all of you moms out there who don't admit that your child doesn't sleep a million hours every night, but this is super early for Calvin. Last year at this time, he was up until 11:30 or later most nights. It was KILLING me.

This is my big plan for the year -

5:00 - up

Walk dogs - 30 minutes

5:30 - feed animals - dogs, cats, guinea pig, bunnies, bird

5:40 - get dressed, do hair/make-up

6:05 -make coffee (Cailin has some!), pack lunch, gather shit - check Cal's stuff, load of laundry, unload dish washer, load dishwasher

6:15-6:30 - leave (with arrival around 7:05)

WORK

3:00 - leave school

3:30 - walk dogs

4:00- feed dogs, cats, laundry, clean, make dinner

4:30 - Cal home - eat, chill

6:00 - pack lunches, make sure clothes are ready

6:30 - do work, read, blog

8:00 -bath, shower, teeth, jammies

9:00 -bed (Cal)

9:00 - work, blog, read

10:30 - bed! haha

Allow me to explain a few things about this. First of all - I haven't even had a glimmer of an idea about any sort of routine or schedule for a LONG time. It may sound like a bunch of hooey, but I seriously have gaps in memory from a year or 2 before Avery was born until about May of this year. It's crazy, but I really can't remember much. It is only recently that I have been recalling chunks of things that happened or I did during this time. This isn't uncommon following trauma, but it is tough to believe or understand unless you've experienced it. (not recommended btw!). So this schedule may seem ridiculous to you normal peeps out there.

Secondly there are some major committments to sleep all up in this thing. I despise sleep. I know that in addition to trauma, my memory is blurred because of sleep deprivation. I don't sleep much & when I do try, I do not sleep well. It is important though & I would like to remember some things about my 20s (well most things, actually) so I am going to try to rest more. Maybe sleep will happen...maybe not, but I am going to try. My wake-up time last year was more in the 4:15/4:30 range. I don't like to feel rushed in the morning. I like to drink my pot & a half of coffee & change my mind about my outfit 15 times. I like to do my hair & make-up while watching Netflix or reading a book. Hmmm...maybe this schedule already sucks?! Bedtime is kind of laughable too. It will be great for Cal-fun, but the earlier he's sleeping, the later I want to stay up & get things done. (I have 4 minutes to go to bed...still typing...and I want to read more now - I'm IN bed, does that count? I need schedule referees. I don't know the rules.)

One more thing because I am running out of time here - I dropped the ball on 1 of my nightly goals already tonight. I really don't know what I am wearing tomorrow. Grrr...I shall lay in bed & stew about that now. Maybe if I get up at 4:15, I can find, launder & dry an outfit - my favorite ones are always in the hamper/on the bathroom floor.