I digress...
Crazy things like this happen to me constantly. I know that this particular almost nightly debacle is due to my choice of locale & my need to run to the car for countless things strewn about in there. And in good fortune for said toads, they all (although I am sure that one particular hopping amigo has got me a few times) have survived & it happens while Cal's in bed. Otherwise we would have even more toads captured indoors. He loves them & prefers to hold them while watching tv. Don't worry. He'll ask you if you would like to hold them too. "Don't worry. Thems really nice."
I've spent some time reading today (big shocker!). A last minute grab & dash at the Library sent me home with Jai Pausch's book. It was in the new non-fiction section which is my weakness. I grabbed it impulsively & figured out while getting my highlights done (thank you Tracey!) that it was Jai's caregiver point of view following the death of Randy Paush.
I read "The Last Lecture" awhile ago & truly enjoyed it. My mom who is not a reader, but listens to books while she commutes, raved as well. It's definitely worth the read. It's a quick read & inspiring. Jai is absolutely KILLING me though. Her book is also amazing. Like my life, hers includes many dates. September 2007 this, February 2008 that. HOLD ON A MINUTE!
I generally have to severely concentrate on dates & relate them to some prior knowledge I have of the time to allow them to sink in. It took me too long to read Seabiscuit because I would turn the dates over in my head & try to match them with historical events & family members who were living at the time. I am fascinated to think of my grandmom as a young girl hearing adults chat about the world famous horse races & the Depression. Crazy, right?!
Here's some crazy for you. In the time of Randy & Jai's grappling with cancer & what it was doing to their lives - we had to do it TWICE! My heart has told me a million times to write a memoire, but I constantly bully myself into thinking that no one would want to read it except those who already lived it. And I know that us childhood cancer mommas could do with reading entertainment that doesn't have to do with cancer. Am I right?! But here I am dazzled by a cancer care-giver memoire.
Just when I think - I'm going to do it. I'm going to try to sell my book idea. What's the harm? -well, then I step on a toad. Crazy stuff happens to me. I like to share it, I like to laugh about it & no matter what, something crazier will happen soon enough. I am afraid of putting yet another crazy thing into motion. We have enough crazy around here as it is.
If I...don't try...it won't happen. So here's to the year of giving it a go. If I can step on a toad/toads & they just hop away after getting the piss scared out of them (literally) - I can get stomped on a few more times too. Thank you Pausch family! A reality check.
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